You can reach a point where finding yet another clearer explanation feels impossible. The subject gets dropped, even when being misunderstood still hurts, because opening it again means doing all the translating from the beginning.
Looks vs reality
The same Experience can look very different from the outside than it feels on the inside.
"You're being so quiet. Are you mad at me?"
I'm not angry, I'm just out of energy. The 'translation' battery is at zero, and silence is the only way I can recharge.
"Why won't you just talk about it? You're shutting me out."
This isn't a wall, it's a boundary. I've learned that explaining this part of me costs more than I have right now, especially when it's not truly heard.
"You seem so distant lately. It feels like you don't care."
My distance is a shield, not a weapon. It's the space I need to exist without having to constantly justify my own operating system.
"You used to try to make me understand. Now you just give up."
It felt like an infinite loop with no resolution. I'm not giving up on our relationship, I'm just stepping off the hamster wheel of explaining the same thing over and over.
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